saturday - 10/12/05

i got my 7th client today. as well as my 7th rejection. when i saw my client out, i'd wanted to scream my head off and murder the next person who crosses my path. then daniel [one of the managers] talked to me, saying majority of the image consultants there only get deals after 10 clients. i felt better after that. he also said i still had next year. which was true. i can work fulltime after my O levels till i get my results.

anyway, was heading home at around 9 plus, and saw jess, subash [i think. duno how to spell] and eunice at the coffeeshop just a few feet from my block. sat down and talked to them till 10:30 when i finally got home. they were telling all sorts of funny stories about clients and employees they've had. i guess when you work, its all you ever talk about. like what im doing now.

jess is my team leader; team D. subash is another team leader who's training to become a manager. and eunice is a partimer that joined about a month ago. it was fun lah. didnt say much cuz their stories were really interesting.

but im EXHAUSTED. i've forgotten the feeling of being well-rested. i mean, monday is my free day, but i usually go out by myself to places like the airport or to feed the cats and stuff. tuesday i have badmin training and maybe i'll go out after that too. wednesday i have job training from ten to about 12, and i'll probably go out after that also. thursday im working from noon to about eight, and that goes for friday too. saturday and sunday i work from 9:30 to maybe eight. and the stupid thing is, i've only got one more week at nbyn but i've got NO DEALS.

im trying to encourage myself by repeating what daniel said. that we normally get deals after the tenth client. im so crushed. i'd wanted to work because of christmas. i was never able to afford half the things i really want to get for my friends for christmas. i thought now i'd be able to clinch three deals and im all set. actually, two would be enough. that'd be around $300.

usually come home and cry my eyes out in the bathroom because i felt like such a loser. i thought that i really sucked at working and stuff like that. i nearly wanted to quit. i guess it was God's will to have daniel talk to me today. feel loads better.

of course there're other things to worry about, like my studies. the holidays are ending but i still havent finish my homework yet. plus i have to get a head start on next year's syllabus. WHY DID MR PANG GIVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK ???